Name: Chicklet Age: Adult Time Zone: EST/EDT Email: DWlogs@writeme.com Other Contact Info: Plurk: ChickletLARP Prefered method of contact: PM the journal or poke me on Plurk. Current Characters at Tramitem: None Reserve:Tada!
Character Information
Full Name: Ashildr/Me/Lady Me/Mayor Me Nicknames: See above. She prefers to go by Me Canon: Doctor Who PB: Maisie Williams - original actress for the role. Journal: Memories_of_me 4th Walling: I am fine with it, but ideally I would love to plot it out first. Canon Point: CRAU. From Canon, her canon point is right after dropping Clara off (so about 5 minutes after the last time we see her in the show/a year after,. depending on your POV). She spent three or four years in Wake.
Personality: Me is cold and distant, by choice and effort. She has been made immortal. The Doctor said that she was immortal, not indestructible, and yet she had seen the end of existence. The last Immortal left, save for a time traveler she knew would come to her at the end. And he did. The problem for her was that she had the lifespan of an immortal, but the memory of a mortal. Given how memory is so individual, when Me lost the names and fasces of those she had loved, she remembered the pain of losing them, rather than the joy of loving them. After she lost her children to plague, she had vowed no more children. As she lost her last spouse, she vowed no more romance. When Clara died, the Doctor was her only friend. She tried so hard not to make more. She tried so hard to stay distant and aloof. In canon she mostly succeeded. (Head canon worked with other players in Wake had her in a weird pseudo-friendship with the Master/Missy and River Song.) In Wake there were a few places those walls almost broke. River, Missy, nearly Nine, Chat Noir and... Link. Link came the closest to breaking the isolation around her, because he accepted everything she said about how he was going to die. And because he respected her choices about herself. Well, some of them.
Me is a character with walls around her heart, around herself. But like so many with such walls, they hide a venerability within. She knows she is fragile. She knows that part of her is desperate for connection, for friends and family and love. But she's been struck down by that so many times that she no longer trusts herself or her desires.
Under all that ice and isolation is a girl who once upon a time was creative and sensitive. Who gave her life for the people she loved, died a hero. That death was taken from her, but hints of Ashildr - the girl she had once been - remained. In canon it is shown in how she sees endings as beautiful. How she keeps her journals. In Wake it was in flashes and Storms that brought Ashildr to the fore. Ashildr we see only briefly in the series as herself, but we see hints of who she was in seeing how she changes in canon as they meet her again and again. We see the loving girl who would do anything for the people around her. Who is has to take a stand against injustice and cruelty. Even if it is stupid, even if it is dangerous.
The thing is, in all forms Ashildr/Me has always been brave. There has always been a core of strength to her. What that strength is turned towards changes but it is always there. As Ashildr, when she someone slaughtered the others of her village, she challenged them. When she realized that her challenge would lead to everyone else dying she was desperate to fix things, to save them.
This could also be linked to a deep seated self hatred we see from her very first moments. When we first meet Ashildr, she is concerned that everyone in the group that had gone out had returned, because she had been so sure that they'd all died and it was her fault. She's even told by someone who knew her well that if something had happened, he was sure she'd find a way to blame herself for it. And then of course, she did put them all in danger. She was instrumental in saving them in the end, which should have been a beautiful end to her character arc, by her estimation. As she would later say about Clara's death, it was noble and beautiful; and then it was stolen away from her. This could be behind a lot of her holding onto pain rather than joy.
CR-AU: While in Wake, Me progressed in two directions at once. She continued on the trajectory that we see in the show, with her withdrawing more and more from everyone. However, the events in the game kept reminding her of who she used to be, kept bringing her back to Ashildr. More, there were a great many people in the game who were intent on drawing her out and befriending her. While most failed some managed to get into the cracks in her walls. While she and River agreed that neither fully trusted the other, they both enjoyed getting together for wine and tea to gripe against the Doctor. One thing they could agree on was that Ten, as he had become after being changed by the City of Change (Nautilus, where the game takes place) was no longer who they knew, and they would meet to gripe about him. She tried to forge a friendship with Nine. Three actually got in under her guard some. And Link from the Legend of Zelda series did the best job of it, by constantly pestering her in all the right ways. In the end, when she was leaving the game, she actually gifted him the Quantum Shade that she had actually recreated.
In the game, characters gained a power called Bending (Bending reality to suit you), and anyone in game could learn it, even if they had no powers in cannon. Just as Me spoke in The Woman Who Lived about enough practice making you the best there ever was, Me threw herself into learning Bending. She would often go out into the woods with her bow and Bend arrows on the fly to practice both archery and Bending at once. She would, of course, never admit that she chose the spiders as target practice because they were known to prey upon her fellow Wakened (other player characters).
That was Me as a whole in the game. She would find ways to help others without ever admitting that was what she was doing. Her frustrations with Ten really stemmed from the same. She was trying to lie to him to trick him into protecting himself, throwing away her own morals and the beauty of Clara's sacrifice if that was the cost of protecting her best friend. Her issues with Rose are a long story, and actually mostly separate from her issues with Ten, except for Ten's instance on choosing Rose over the universe.
Though one event that reverted Me to Ashildr for a week had her and Ten being a student and teacher, and getting along quite well. Because of shenanigans, they wound up painting a mural together with every face the Doctor ever showed on Earth and any before Ten that had never made it to anywhere Me could have met him. After the Storm, trying to make peace, they worked together to recreate the mural.
Me also has game memories from a Storm (Many storms were temporary AU events) where she and the Master traveled extensively, which will also mess interestingly with regains; as Wake Me knows that the memories are false, if we get a Master player and they are interested, she can get those memories back as a regain without that context.
Basically Wake Me has a new fashion style, and a whole mess of conflicting memories that will mix with her faded canon memories to make an interesting soup of regains, especially once Bending and her healing are added back to the mix.
Physical description: A young woman who stopped aging in her early teens that uses clothing and makeup to look like a young adult. Medium long dark hair. She looks human.
Meta Powers From Canon: She heals almost impossibly fast, making her nearly impossible to kill. (She recovers from plague too swiftly to be killed by that as well.) She has also stopped aging, but her memory is human limited memory.
CRAU: Bending - using will power, imagination, focus, and power Bending can create nearly anything that isn't alive, can in rare cases create things with a limited life or even simpler life forms that are fully alive. Bending can be used against someone else, but in the game there was a system for checks for contested Bending. Since that won't be in this game, should she regain this ability I will plot with other players OOC and discuss before she tries anything against another PC.
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Date: 2020-06-14 12:41 am (UTC)Age: Adult
Time Zone: EST/EDT
Email: DWlogs@writeme.com
Other Contact Info: Plurk: ChickletLARP
Prefered method of contact: PM the journal or poke me on Plurk.
Current Characters at Tramitem: None
Reserve: Tada!
Nicknames: See above. She prefers to go by Me
Canon: Doctor Who
PB: Maisie Williams - original actress for the role.
Journal: Memories_of_me
4th Walling: I am fine with it, but ideally I would love to plot it out first.
Canon Point: CRAU. From Canon, her canon point is right after dropping Clara off (so about 5 minutes after the last time we see her in the show/a year after,. depending on your POV). She spent three or four years in Wake.
Personality: Me is cold and distant, by choice and effort. She has been made immortal. The Doctor said that she was immortal, not indestructible, and yet she had seen the end of existence. The last Immortal left, save for a time traveler she knew would come to her at the end. And he did. The problem for her was that she had the lifespan of an immortal, but the memory of a mortal. Given how memory is so individual, when Me lost the names and fasces of those she had loved, she remembered the pain of losing them, rather than the joy of loving them. After she lost her children to plague, she had vowed no more children. As she lost her last spouse, she vowed no more romance. When Clara died, the Doctor was her only friend. She tried so hard not to make more. She tried so hard to stay distant and aloof. In canon she mostly succeeded. (Head canon worked with other players in Wake had her in a weird pseudo-friendship with the Master/Missy and River Song.) In Wake there were a few places those walls almost broke. River, Missy, nearly Nine, Chat Noir and... Link. Link came the closest to breaking the isolation around her, because he accepted everything she said about how he was going to die. And because he respected her choices about herself. Well, some of them.
Me is a character with walls around her heart, around herself. But like so many with such walls, they hide a venerability within. She knows she is fragile. She knows that part of her is desperate for connection, for friends and family and love. But she's been struck down by that so many times that she no longer trusts herself or her desires.
Under all that ice and isolation is a girl who once upon a time was creative and sensitive. Who gave her life for the people she loved, died a hero. That death was taken from her, but hints of Ashildr - the girl she had once been - remained. In canon it is shown in how she sees endings as beautiful. How she keeps her journals. In Wake it was in flashes and Storms that brought Ashildr to the fore. Ashildr we see only briefly in the series as herself, but we see hints of who she was in seeing how she changes in canon as they meet her again and again. We see the loving girl who would do anything for the people around her. Who is has to take a stand against injustice and cruelty. Even if it is stupid, even if it is dangerous.
The thing is, in all forms Ashildr/Me has always been brave. There has always been a core of strength to her. What that strength is turned towards changes but it is always there. As Ashildr, when she someone slaughtered the others of her village, she challenged them. When she realized that her challenge would lead to everyone else dying she was desperate to fix things, to save them.
This could also be linked to a deep seated self hatred we see from her very first moments. When we first meet Ashildr, she is concerned that everyone in the group that had gone out had returned, because she had been so sure that they'd all died and it was her fault. She's even told by someone who knew her well that if something had happened, he was sure she'd find a way to blame herself for it. And then of course, she did put them all in danger. She was instrumental in saving them in the end, which should have been a beautiful end to her character arc, by her estimation. As she would later say about Clara's death, it was noble and beautiful; and then it was stolen away from her. This could be behind a lot of her holding onto pain rather than joy.
CR-AU: While in Wake, Me progressed in two directions at once. She continued on the trajectory that we see in the show, with her withdrawing more and more from everyone. However, the events in the game kept reminding her of who she used to be, kept bringing her back to Ashildr. More, there were a great many people in the game who were intent on drawing her out and befriending her. While most failed some managed to get into the cracks in her walls. While she and River agreed that neither fully trusted the other, they both enjoyed getting together for wine and tea to gripe against the Doctor. One thing they could agree on was that Ten, as he had become after being changed by the City of Change (Nautilus, where the game takes place) was no longer who they knew, and they would meet to gripe about him. She tried to forge a friendship with Nine. Three actually got in under her guard some. And Link from the Legend of Zelda series did the best job of it, by constantly pestering her in all the right ways. In the end, when she was leaving the game, she actually gifted him the Quantum Shade that she had actually recreated.
In the game, characters gained a power called Bending (Bending reality to suit you), and anyone in game could learn it, even if they had no powers in cannon. Just as Me spoke in The Woman Who Lived about enough practice making you the best there ever was, Me threw herself into learning Bending. She would often go out into the woods with her bow and Bend arrows on the fly to practice both archery and Bending at once. She would, of course, never admit that she chose the spiders as target practice because they were known to prey upon her fellow Wakened (other player characters).
That was Me as a whole in the game. She would find ways to help others without ever admitting that was what she was doing. Her frustrations with Ten really stemmed from the same. She was trying to lie to him to trick him into protecting himself, throwing away her own morals and the beauty of Clara's sacrifice if that was the cost of protecting her best friend. Her issues with Rose are a long story, and actually mostly separate from her issues with Ten, except for Ten's instance on choosing Rose over the universe.
Though one event that reverted Me to Ashildr for a week had her and Ten being a student and teacher, and getting along quite well. Because of shenanigans, they wound up painting a mural together with every face the Doctor ever showed on Earth and any before Ten that had never made it to anywhere Me could have met him. After the Storm, trying to make peace, they worked together to recreate the mural.
Me also has game memories from a Storm (Many storms were temporary AU events) where she and the Master traveled extensively, which will also mess interestingly with regains; as Wake Me knows that the memories are false, if we get a Master player and they are interested, she can get those memories back as a regain without that context.
Basically Wake Me has a new fashion style, and a whole mess of conflicting memories that will mix with her faded canon memories to make an interesting soup of regains, especially once Bending and her healing are added back to the mix.
Physical description: A young woman who stopped aging in her early teens that uses clothing and makeup to look like a young adult. Medium long dark hair. She looks human.
Meta Powers From Canon: She heals almost impossibly fast, making her nearly impossible to kill. (She recovers from plague too swiftly to be killed by that as well.) She has also stopped aging, but her memory is human limited memory.
CRAU: Bending - using will power, imagination, focus, and power Bending can create nearly anything that isn't alive, can in rare cases create things with a limited life or even simpler life forms that are fully alive. Bending can be used against someone else, but in the game there was a system for checks for contested Bending. Since that won't be in this game, should she regain this ability I will plot with other players OOC and discuss before she tries anything against another PC.
Notable/Unique Needs: Not really.